Eros and the Whale

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The subterfuges and the self-consciousnesses that might have been avoided.

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about to leap

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the event is never transcended for the sake of something else

2011-04-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

I am truly becoming a specter.

2011-04-23T09:45:00.000-07:00

the Photograph represents that very subtle moment when, to tell the truth, I am neither subject nor object but a subject who feels he is becoming an object: I then experience a micro-version of death (of parenthesis).

Photography transformed subject into object: in order to take the first portraits (around 1840) the subject had to assume long poses under a glass roof in bright sunlight; to become an object made one suffer as much as a surgical operation;

I foresee that I shall have to wake from this bad dream uncomfortably

2011-04-21T21:36:00.000-07:00

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2010-09-07T08:00:00.001-07:00

Look back on time with kindly eyes
He doubtless did his best;
How softly sinks his trembling sun
In human nature's west!

On her breast she wore white lilies or the tears I shed.

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2010-09-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

If she did not exist, she could not be invented.

2010-08-30T08:08:00.000-07:00

God would not be God if He did not punish the transgressor.

2010-08-28T08:00:00.000-07:00

The days will smear together in your memory; the structure of events in time will unhinge.

2010-08-26T21:04:00.000-07:00

DRIVING CROSS COUNTRY. I'LL BE BACK IN THE FALL.

2010-06-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

I'm doing my best to create a little order.

2010-06-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

2010-06-09T06:08:00.000-07:00

Then babble, babble, words, like the solitary child who turns himself into
children, two, three, so as to be together, and whisper together, in the dark.

(Pause.)

2010-06-07T06:00:00.000-07:00

As if the Sea should part
And show a further Sea—
And that—a further—and the Three
But a presumption be—

Of Periods of Seas—
Unvisited of Shores—
Themselves the Verge of Seas to be—
Eternity—is Those—

An altered look about the hills-

2010-06-05T06:11:00.000-07:00

The World feels Dusty When We Stop to Die

2010-06-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

Death but the Drift of Eastern Gray

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2010-05-30T15:32:00.001-07:00

From Blank to Blank—
A Threadless Way
I pushed Mechanic feet—
To stop—or perish—or advance—
Alike indifferent—

If end I gained
It ends beyond
Indefinite disclosed—
I shut my eyes—and groped as well
‘Twas lighter—to be Blind—

THIS IS THE HOUR OF LEAD

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2010-05-16T08:00:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>>>>>zzzzz

2010-05-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

But man is so partial to systems and abstract conclusions that he is ready intentionally to distort the truth, to turn a blind eye and a deaf ear, only so as to justify his logic.

2010-05-11T20:25:00.000-07:00

I heard a fly buzz when I died;
The stillness round my form
Was like the stillness in the air
between the heaves of storm.

The eyes beside had wrung them dry,
And breaths were gathering sure
For that last onset, when the king
Be witnessed in his power.

I willed my keepsakes, signed away
What portion of me I
Could make assignable, and then
There interposed a fly,

With blue, uncertain, stumbling buzz,
Between the light and me;
And then the windows failed, and then
I could not see to see.

Geeshie Wiley

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What about God, for example? He can't eat Chicago any more than I can, after all.

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But how free are birds? Let no bird preen itself on its freedom.
There are cages. There are tamers of birds.
There's a lesson in birds, namely that a certain
modesty about our famous freedom is very much in order,
in the order of nature to which we so palpably belong.

Man who solves one of world's most complex mathematical problems declines award.

2010-04-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

"I don't want to be on display like an animal in a zoo. I'm not a hero of mathematics. I'm not even that successful; that is why I don't want to have everybody looking at me."

With firm resolution, she sang.

2010-04-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

Imagine me; I shall not exist if you do not imagine me.

2010-03-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

The odd sense of living in a brand new, mad new dream world, where everything was permissible, came over me as I realized what she was suggesting.

2010-03-27T09:00:00.000-07:00

2010-03-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

Oh, stupid and reckless of me, no doubt, but after the torture I had been subjected to, I simply had to take advantage of a combination that I knew would never occur again.

My health improved wonderfully in spite or because of all the fantastic blankness and boredom.

2010-03-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

the universe preparing itself for the final harvest

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Las vanidades del mundo
Las grandezas del imperio
Se encierran en el profundo
Silencio del cementerio

Those folds of life, you understand, those unexpected evidences of something that a person hadn't suspected

2010-02-25T09:50:00.000-08:00

Auguste Comte declared that the chemical composition of a star would never be known. The following year Bunsen invented the spectroscope.

2010-02-23T09:39:00.000-08:00

It's like we're back in the womb.

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LOSE THEM FIRST, THEN RUN AFTER THEM LIKE A MADMAN.

2010-02-19T09:23:00.000-08:00

WHILE YOUR HAIR IS STILL LONG, OF COURSE.

The unbridgeable difference, a problem of levels that has nothing to do with intelligence or information

2010-02-17T21:02:00.000-08:00

More room if they buried them standing.

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or to that swan whose agony was so much closer to artistic truth than a drooping dancer's pale arms;

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something, in short, that I could appreciate only after the things and beings that I had most loved in the security of my childhood had been turned to ashes or shot through the heart.

AT ONCE ACCESSIBLE AND INACCESSIBLE

2010-01-30T17:28:00.000-08:00

AN EXPERIMENT:

Send an email to me with any photo attached. I will return the email with a grouping of photos, responding to yours in some way. The email may take a while, but it will happen. This is an ongoing experiment.

-EMILY

How shall the murdered man convince his assassin he will not haunt him?

2010-01-30T09:19:00.000-08:00

Only in dreams do we sometimes arrive at what we were before we were this thing that, who knows, we are.

2010-01-29T10:09:00.000-08:00

THE CAREFUL USE OF CERTAIN METHODS:

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What remains in my memory is the soft, delicate underpinning that I must be gentle with if I am to remember it:

2010-01-18T11:43:00.000-08:00

A SEA OF DOUBLES AND A LAND MASS BETWEEN

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Hemingway

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When I am working on a book or story I write every morning as soon after first light as possible. There is no one to disturb you and it is cool or cold and you come to your work and warm as you write. You read what you have written and, as you always stop when you know what is going to happen next, you go on from there. You write until you come to a place where you still have your juice and you know what will happen next and you stop and try to live through until the next day when you hit it again. You have started at six in the morning, say, and may go on until noon or be through before that. When you stop you are as empty, and at the same time never empty but filling, as when you have made love to someone you love. Nothing can hurt you, nothing can happen, nothing means anything until the next day when you do it again. It is the wait until the next day that is hard to get through.

LIMBS LIKE LAKES

2010-01-08T10:35:00.000-08:00

My children are grown now, but I still think of them when they were little. They never age in my memory.

2010-01-05T09:37:00.000-08:00

Here in your mind you have complete privacy. There's no difference between what is and what could be.

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From the mast, from the past

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that secret depth of the human soul where the shadows of other worlds pass like the shadows of nameless and soundless ships.

2009-12-29T12:20:00.000-08:00

IF YOU DON'T KNOW BY NOW LADY, DON'T MESS WITH IT.

2009-12-28T15:12:00.000-08:00

It was true. God was almighty.

2009-12-25T11:44:00.000-08:00

It's all relative.

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2009-12-23T15:28:00.000-08:00

It was that coral wall with the black hole in the bottom corner, covered up by a vent. there were bookshelves against the coral wall with black bookends that doubled as guns when viewed from our world. everything was coral, coral and gold. the walls were climbing with coral and chairs had coral stripes and cushions and dust. Nick would crawl into the black hole vent and I would watch from the entrance, watching him recede and disappear into the dust, too scared to enter and get sucked into the nothingness. the dust was what prevented me, and the dark. The bookends would watch me watching Nick, I would watch nothing encasing Nick, and gophers were in their holes and the canyon was waiting and screaming and for that instant I was a child and the coral walls were pillars of eternity.

But perhaps somewhere in the world you could.

2009-12-23T13:37:00.000-08:00

What was after the universe? Nothing. But was there anything round the universe to show where it stopped before the nothing place began?

2009-12-18T09:00:00.000-08:00

I recall only once telling my mother that I was bored. "Oh," she said, a furtive smile on her lips, "why don't you bang your head against the wall."

2009-12-16T00:39:00.000-08:00

HEH HEH HEH

2009-12-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

BUT WHAT SYMBOLIC MEANING COULD THIS HAVE???? YOUR REFERENCES ARE SO OBSCURE!! HERMETICALLY SEALED! THE HERMIT CRAB IS SEALED! THE SALAD IS SEALED! THE SEAL IS A SALAD! THE SALADS HAVE HEALED! HERMETICALLY HEALED!

I SCREAM YOU SCREAM WE ALL SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM

2009-12-08T23:29:00.000-08:00

DRUNK OFF THE IMPOSSIBLE PAST

2009-12-08T00:09:00.000-08:00

THERE'S SUCH A HUNGER FOR ELECTRICITY THESE DAYS

2009-12-05T08:52:00.000-08:00

THOSE DREAMS WHERE IN THE MARGIN OF SOME TRIVIAL HAPPENING WE HAVE A PRESENTIMENT OF A MORE SERIOUS ANXIETY THAT WE DO NOT ALWAYS MANAGE TO DECIPHER

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EVERYTHING CAN BE KILLED EXCEPT NOSTALGIA FOR THE KINGDOM, WE CARRY IT IN THE COLOR OF OUR EYES

2009-12-01T10:01:00.000-08:00

AND AS FOR THOSE WHO PROTEST, THEY CAN GO SOAK THEIR HEADS

2009-11-30T09:03:00.000-08:00

DID I SAY PHASCINATE?

2009-11-29T09:13:00.000-08:00

WHY THIS THIRST FOR UNIVERSALITY, WHY THIS STRUGGLE AGAINST TIME?

2009-11-28T08:27:00.000-08:00

THAT WATERFALL

2009-11-27T16:47:00.000-08:00

HELPLESS, SHE THOUGHT SUBLIME THOUGHTS, QUOTATIONS FROM POEMS WHICH MADE HER FEEL THAT SHE WAS IN THE VERY HEART OF THE ARTICHOKE

2009-11-23T11:35:00.000-08:00

LET ME HELP YOU

2009-11-22T09:28:00.000-08:00

SURELY THIS IS NO MORE UNREASONABLE THAN ASKING SOME SAINT OR DIVINITY WHAT ONE SHOULD DO

2009-11-20T10:22:00.000-08:00

THAT METHOD WE OCCIDENTALS USE TO TRY TO REGULATE OUR LIVES: AXIS CENTER, RAISON D'ETRE, OMPHALOS, NOSTALGIC INDO-EUROPEAN NAMES

2009-11-17T10:15:00.000-08:00

"WHO ARE YOU?" AND SHE, WITHOUT A MOMENT'S HESITATION: "I AM THE SOUL IN LIMBO."

2009-11-16T10:54:00.000-08:00

TANGLED IN TIME ITSELF

2009-11-15T12:48:00.000-08:00

REVEALING TO ME, IN SUCH AN OVERPOWERING WAY, WHAT A COMMON RECOGNITION OF LOVE WOULD HAVE COMMITTED US TO AT THAT MOMENT

2009-11-10T18:06:00.000-08:00

THIS IS IT PEOPLE

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